I just read Sarah Glover's testimony, and I just feel like it is time to share mine. I also was raised in a family that is not very religious, yet still taught my sister and me about God. In third grade my mother sent me to Camp Squanto, the same Christian camp that Sarah also speaks about. I loved Camp Squanto and went there for the fun and excitement when I was young. But as I continued to go there over the years, my life really changed from camp. I began to go there to be with other Christians and to really be in a supportive environment. I went through some really tough times growing up, and Camp Squanto seemed to be the place for me to go to escape and to really rethink my life and my decisions. I spent 10 summers of my life there, each of them bringing new meaning to me...

I spent most of my high school career pretty depressed and sad about who I was. I hated the way that I looked, which led to an eating disorder. It went on for years, and by the end of my senior year in high school, I was at my absolute low. I was scared because I had made plans to go to college 1000 miles from my home. And I knew that I was too sick to go. I was also scared because I had really lost my connection to God. Instead of thinking about Him when making decisions, I instead put food first and rotated my life around it. I was a mess, and I could not wait to go to camp that summer to try to get that feeling of God back into my life.

When I got to camp, it was so hard for me to get back on track because my life totally rotated around food. I was so depressed that I really did not even know where to turn to. Then I heard the most amazing song. It was "Love Song for a Savior." The first time I heard the song, I sat down and cried like a baby. All I could hear was the band singing "I want to fall in love with You," and I felt like it was a song about my life. I knew that there was nothing more that I needed than to totally fall head over heels in love with God. Then I would be able to accept myself for who I was. I was at camp for about 3 weeks that summer, and I finally got help for my eating disorder. To this day, I don't know if I would have gotten help had I not heard that song. My whole life changed in that one moment. I still thank God to this day, almost 4 years later, for sending us such a talented and amazing band like Jars of Clay. Through them and their music, God truly changed and saved my life.

I am a senior in college now, and that is still my favorite song. I am much better now, although I do still struggle with the issue of food on a daily basis. But I turn to God now instead of being selfish and doing as I please. And whenever I get sad or I start to allow food to take over my life again, I just play "Love Song for a Savior" and I remember that God is the only way to go. I pray that everyone has a chance to experience that feeling.

Betsy Froebel- 21
Cromwell, CT
froebel@mindspring.com